How Aussie Got Her Groove Back

[Clang McFly]

This is getting grotesque in the extreme.

No that will be when I start popping my backne.

You know Clang, I really like you, I see the potential in you. You are a kind gentle person. It is frustrating that I believe in you and what you are capable of and how you seem to sabotage yourself. 

Some of the shit you say and do attracts bad luck into your life. The cross dressing is not one of those things, there is nothing evil about that. The person you seem to hurt the most is yourself. I wish you would get it together and power on. You can do it. I can see it.

I am a kind and gentle person. That's how I sabotaged myself. For years I blamed others for my shitty life situation. But really only have myself to blame. Fucking with other people as Duchess put it, is my coping mechanism. Out of the goodness of my heart, instead of letting my Dad go to a nursing home I chose to live with him instead of getting my own place. Now I'm stuck with a Dad who is waiting to die, won't go to the doctor( I guess stubbornness runs in the family though, since I've been ignoring my own health problems with my throat and teeth for months), won't bathe, and barely eats. And then there is my useless younger brother who manages to fuck up every job he's had and is constantly unemployed, mooching off our Dad and not getting help for his gambling problem, even after losing hundred of dollars of our Dad's money. And me what do I do nothing. I enable the shit out of him because between work and trying to have fun I don't have time/don't want to deal with it. I even let him drive my car because he doesn't have money to fix his car.

Oh and I did sort of get it together and move on, Aussie. I used to be a lot like my brother until I got a job with Price Chopper 4 years ago, and then got a good DMV job 3 years ago.