Ladies & gents... this is your captain freaking

[Duchess]

I was ready to burst out bawling and crying for my momma. I was suffering alone in my silence and nearly had a fucking mental breakdown.

That's how it starts. Just awful wasn't it? I can remember my lip quivering the first time it happened to me & actually praying not to make a scene or do anything to draw attention to myself, when all I wanted to do was wail. I was so pathetic.