12-22-2008, 07:16 AM
Maybe I am not cut out for this forum after all. I thought it would be fun here.A place to bust on people and getsome laughs. Not a place where people get ripped apart and insulted to the point where it's just viscious. I don't think what some people do here is mocking. Just my opinion.
I am not saying this for sympathy but I had news last week that was devasting to me. My older brother has a brain tumor. He is going to Houston to see the best neurosurgeon in the country to have it out in January. Most likely, everything will be fine and I will be there with him for the surgery. This whole situation has made me see that there is a lot more to life than being in a nasty forum being insulted and made to feel inferior by people I have never even met and mean nothing to me. Not that anyone has succeeded in making me feel inferior but he certainly has tried. I have nothing to be ashamed about in my life. And I don't need to tear others down to feel better about myself either.
I came to this forum to have fun and be on a different sort of board than the others I am on. It was supposed to be fun. Having to defend myself against lies and even FEELING the need to defend myself is NOT fun. Most of the time I do laugh at the antics that go on here. But when I read some of the stuff posted it really just makes me sick. And I am not talking about the stuff said about me. It's everyone else. I do enjoy the lively debates between some of the members on the USA vs England as well as other discussions. But it's clear that some members here, well really only one, are just too sick and twisted for my taste. And not fitting in here is not something I am embarassed about either. Not being a complete and total asshole is something I am proud of. So if I don't have IT in me to be here, so be it. It's certainly not the end of my world.
I am not saying this for sympathy but I had news last week that was devasting to me. My older brother has a brain tumor. He is going to Houston to see the best neurosurgeon in the country to have it out in January. Most likely, everything will be fine and I will be there with him for the surgery. This whole situation has made me see that there is a lot more to life than being in a nasty forum being insulted and made to feel inferior by people I have never even met and mean nothing to me. Not that anyone has succeeded in making me feel inferior but he certainly has tried. I have nothing to be ashamed about in my life. And I don't need to tear others down to feel better about myself either.
I came to this forum to have fun and be on a different sort of board than the others I am on. It was supposed to be fun. Having to defend myself against lies and even FEELING the need to defend myself is NOT fun. Most of the time I do laugh at the antics that go on here. But when I read some of the stuff posted it really just makes me sick. And I am not talking about the stuff said about me. It's everyone else. I do enjoy the lively debates between some of the members on the USA vs England as well as other discussions. But it's clear that some members here, well really only one, are just too sick and twisted for my taste. And not fitting in here is not something I am embarassed about either. Not being a complete and total asshole is something I am proud of. So if I don't have IT in me to be here, so be it. It's certainly not the end of my world.
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