08-27-2015, 01:42 PM
(08-26-2015, 06:41 AM)Duchess Wrote:(08-26-2015, 04:08 AM)Love Child Wrote: Just try it sometime.
Just kidding.
Have you lost someone close to you where you feel like wailing?
I've had a couple losses where I've wailed mentally but I've never lost my shit and had people witness it. I don't want anyone to see my pain, it's mine and I don't care to share it. I don't like losing my composure under any circumstance, I keep that shit hidden.
I thanked a friend for letting me cry with them this weekend. Acutally I was the only one shedding the tears. I felt safe and comfortable and they were not there saying, "Don't cry". They just helped wipe the tears away, it was kind of funny. I hate it when people want to do something or "take away" the pain. Just let me cry.
(08-27-2015, 10:07 AM)F.U. Wrote: Hardest thing I ever did was dealing with my dads and my little brothers funerals [2 separate times]. I had to be the strong one and hold the rest of the family up. Not a tear shed until I was alone, days later. Then all hell broke loose. I probably looked like a cold hearted dick by not crying at my dads funeral. I don't know how I did it.
I watched a good friend go through this. Strong as ever at his son's funeral. Wasn't until almost 2 years later that I saw him shed tears that were held in. He wouldn't show his family though.